I'M TWO N' .....

I take a look about
realize that I've been older now
without gettin' nuthin' in spendin' those time
that I'm two and ....

       Anxiety and fear comin' closer
       that I'll never know 'bout this long-
       boresome time
       that all my steps were just in vain
       that He still keeps me waaitin' for nuthin'

I'm two and ...
but it's felt such a loneliness
for noone really beside

      Losin' that shiny time
      hopin' that bright next-days
      wonderin' bout the old days
      dreamin' the end of journey

Oohh Lord.... I don't know!

SEPARO HATI

Allah ....

di sisi-Mu

di rumah-Mu

di sekeliling hamba-hamba-Mu

yang berthawaf menyerukan asma-Mu

yang dengan kerendahan hati memasrahkan dirinya pada-Mu

di sana

waktu itu

pernah terbersit untuk menyerahkan diri

seluruh jiwa dan raga

sepenuh hati

sesisa waktu

hanya untuk menjadi pelayan-Mu

namun

masih ada janji lain

tugas lain

amanah lain

kehidupan lain

yang harus ditepati

yang harus dipenuhi

yang harus dijalani

maka

ijinkan

relakan

ridhokan

kupenuhi janjiku

dengan separuh hati....!!

wallahu ... wallahu..!!

 

A TIED - LINE

solitaire

blue

empty

get me

push me

force me

seduce me

to the circle of black

that must be ended

for age's bein' more

time that hard to live ....

so man bad things - I know -

have being passed, being done

some long-hard journey

some foolish-stupid lies

of blue-dark fate

hypocrite for real

for surely no-body hurts with that

even it'll kill me my self

it'll gasp me

spite my face

hurt my self

should I

cry

scream

be blind 

bein' away

naked and cold

for

nobody cares